With you in mind...

I know I burned our bridge…but I’ve got no bridges left. I burned all the bridges, I burned the road, the trails, the hiking path, it’s all gone…I’m cashing in, I’m done, I got nothing, I got nobody. I don’t want anything, I don’t want anybody, and that’s the worst part, when the want goes. That’s bad. I mean suffering is one thing, or not having is one thing, but when you just don’t care anymore? You get to a point you know when it’s time to just put a period on the..you know…what ever this was. My life, I’m going to end it…look me in the eye and tell me I have one good reason to live…see you got nothing.

When I wake up in the morning, I just sit there and I’m like, ‘Uggghhhh…’ It’s a awful way to start your day. Every day starts with me like, my eyes open and I reload the program of misery. I just open my eyes, remember who I am, what I’m like, and I go ‘Ohhh…. I guess… I guess… do it… I dunno… I guess… oh my God.’

I’m in love with you. Yeah, it’s that bad. You’re so beautiful to me. Shut up! Let me tell you - let me. Every time I look at your face or even remember it, it wrecks me. And the way you are with me. And you’re just fun and you shit all over me and you make fun of me and you’re real. I don’t have enough time in any day to think about you enough. I feel like I’m gonna live a thousand years because that’s how long it’s gonna take me to have one thought about you, which is that I’m crazy about you. I don’t wanna be with anybody else. I don’t. I really don’t. I had a dream the other night that you and I were on a train. We were on this train, and you were holding my hand. That’s the whole dream - you were holding my hand. And I felt you holding my hand. I woke up, and I couldn’t believe it wasn’t real. I feel like I’m gonna die if I can’t be with you. And I can’t be with you, so I’m gonna die. And I don’t care ‘cause I was brought into existence to know you, and that’s enough. The idea that you would want me back, it’s like greedy.